Winter...i jst hate it!

Hmm people all over the world like winters and they think the cold weather makes it perfect!M sure u like it as well.But i m a guy from solapur and for ur information,solapur knows only two seasons "उन्हाला आणि कड़क उन्हाला!"
Now one thing about me,I hate winters and more than that i hate cold weather.I immediately fall ill if i go out in such a weather...

The story goes like this...
Its a beautiful cold day in December,not for me though i hate it...
I m sitting in the hall at my home and for some reasons (even though fan is on)m feeling sweaty!Now my brother comes in and increases fan speed.Generally at that speed i tend to say step down the speed,but today it felt okay.I was surprised how i was comfortable with all this!
Its 7pm and all of us decide to go out for dinner.We all sit in the car and now the A.C. in car is switched ON.Usually this makes me crazy, but i kind of liked it. After some time the level of A.C.was increased.To be honest i had never survived this kind of weather without getting a cold.But all this was not affecting me at all!
All the way in the car i was thinking why the sudden change?Y m i not feeling the cold?Y m i comfortable with cold weather?

The car stops,we all get out of car and i again start to feel sweaty!Now this time i literally had no clue what was happening!
But then i checked
ohh shit...shit ...oh
I was wearing a sweater!!
Total waste of time...

Purpose Surved

10 am,i worked for 1hour now i wanna share something...two three days ago i was chatting with a friend after a long time.So we exchanged few questions but when i told him about how my work is going and what m doing these days he gave me a reply which was very strange one!
He said,"I already know that and i can understand what ur going through!"
First of all i asked him how does he know these things,then i crossed checked if he really knew or was just kidding,but he knew the things very clear and this thing surprised me!
I asked him again"tula kasa kalala?Kon sangital ka?"
he replied are u only told me!
what?i never told him.
then i asked him when?
he said,"I've been reading ur blog and know whats happening around u!"
This sentence said by him assured me that the main purpose behind writing this blog has been served!Yes, it feels great that without even meeting me he knew what m doing and is in touch with me.
For those of you who just started following my blog or havent read my first post the vary purpose of writting this blog was

1. My closest friend writes a diary,n told me that it really would be great if i write one too! Laziness being one of my qualities I thought instead of writing with a pen and a paper typing is a better way...
2. I read lot of blogs n found it a very interesting idea to know what people are doing without meeting them or even talking to them.

i feel like purpose served by this blog and will keep on writing so that above two points will be served over and over again...

It aint over...

I m thinking about taking a brake from my work for few days since i have my MBA exams coming up.Right now m doing a job and the whole idea behind doing this job was to get some work experience, as it will come handy while doing MBA;but i think i was wrong,today the situation is like that i don't have time to study for my exams.
When i see at people who are jobless right now i think that i should have done the same!M not doing this job for money,m doing this because i wanna do this job but m not enjoying this job as well.
So i cant complain at all!!
All i can say right now is my decision backfired..n m felling the heat below my back now!
Right now my mind set is that i don't wanna work anymore m very tired of doing this kinda work.
This is the same reason for which i joined the company.I was very scared of the fact that if i don't do a job ill get used to the easy going life n will do only n only time pass.....I still m scared about that.
After all these years of struggle in engineering i have learned one thing that is to never give up till ur last breath!whether its written paper or oral;even if i don't know anything about the subject one day before the exam,I could say with confidence,"It doesn't matter how hard or the easy the subject is,it doesn't matter if i know anything about the subject or not I will give it my best try n the rest will follow".
One of my idols SIR ROCKY BALBOA once said "It ain't over...till its over!"
Yes i believe in those words n have followed them consistently in my engineering life.Today its not different m in a very tough situation n m totally lost right now...
A very intelligent guy once said,"No matter how tough the situation is,There is always a way out!"
That intelligent guy my friend is ME!So give me some days ill definitely fight back n will find a way to tackle the things...don't panic :)

Diwali was Great!

After a very long time diwali felt like diwali! I mean the whole family got together and we had great fun.
For those who read my previous post dont worrry about my life becouse the things i wrote were from the movie WANTED!thats why i have given the title as wanted,i liked those lines so much that i wrote them down and put my name in those lines...

i just got a new laptop and its a bit difficult to type with this...I m a bit uncomfortable with this one.M not in the mood to write but have nothing to do right now,so rather than wasting my time i thought i would do some writing but fewwwwww m bored
Bye.

The thing With Short Hair

For all those girls who want to know how to impress Rohit Naik here's a clue,Rohit Naik has a thing for girls with short hair.
Yes i like girls with short hair....Don't know what attracts me to them but whenever i see a girl with short hair,she gets my attention very quickly!
I can give lots of examples,let it be demi Moore or piggi chops in her latest nokia add
whenever i see them in short hair i immediately like them as compared to them in longer hair..
I distinctly remember girls on whom i had a crush mostly had short hair starting from my school days to college days P.C. and then flintoff...I liked each one of them in short hair and as soon as they grew up hair....I was like "Get outa here!!"
Also the fact when a girl has spects it adds some intelligence to her look i like that as well,never had a crush on chushmish girl though!!
So there you have it now get those hair stylists working hard on your hair and your sure to have some fun....... ;)

Wanted

M finding it hard to care about anything these days,
the only thing i do care about is that i don't care about anything!
seriously, were is me?
I don't remember a thing which i have enjoyed lately!Don't remember the day i had lot of fun!
actually I feel like a 40 year old man in the body of a 21 years boy...
My name is Rohit Naik...
And This is not me taking control of my damn life..from destiny,from my f****n job...
This is not me fulfilling my destiny,
This
is
not
me .........

Criticism...

CRITICISM:That's one world nobody likes,at least i don't!!

I have been getting a lot of criticism these days about my blog.The one thing people are complaining in particular is i m writing about ridiculous things and the other being m a terrible writer...(and i use lot of dots...)
When i started blogging ,it was on experimental basis .I asked few people who i thought were good in writing and had read a lot of books,how my blog is?is it very bad?what should i work on? and many more questions.When they gave me thumbs up then only i told few friends about the blog.At that time i knew they are going to read it( they had no option,i forced them).I had to be careful about what n how m writing in the blog.Those were the days when i wrote the blog with the fact in mind that how people will like or dislike it.
"Experience counts"--This is the thing we realise after doing the mistakes!Yes i have made mistakes in many posts were i wrote nonsense(most of them).But now i have learned that writing what i think,writing what i believe is the main reason behind this blog.
The final verdict is that i will keep on writing what i believe and what i like irrespective of it being nonsense :)

The Pink connection....

If u havent noticed yet then please pay attention.I was bored with the lay out of the blog,so i wanted to change the blog look,n look what i liked!PINK color.......
I don't know y but pink is considered to be feminine color.I was a bit confused whether to use it or not as people will get a wrong impression then i thought who reads my blog?
If nobody reads y would i care?so bravely i have used the thing i like without getting scared of the consequences...n that's what we all should do in life isn't it?
By this time u must have realised that m in office,yes ur right m in office n having free time as usual.Get ready for some more gyan from me in upcoming blogs :)

Alas.............

I have a lot of things in my mind but m too tired and bored to type them right now...............

A wednesday!

Well well this is my second post in one day! i must be having a lot of free time :)
its true a lot of free time...apart from being in confused state my mind needs some food or some time pass activity.Now how long can you surf on Internet? 1 hour 2 hours max but 8 hours of your day what to do !
My friends think that i have an ideal job but what to do in this free time?I tried surfing,chatting but m fed up of that ,so now i have started bogging for a change....
One of the most weird thing i have seen in my office is that people watch movies in office i was literally shocked!Its true, they'll get headphones and start watching a movie.Its a crime :) not by law but abe thodi to sharam karo yaar!
K now moving on to the main topic A WEDNESDAY,the movie which reminded me of dombivali fast a marathi movie,it also showed me that Nasser is a great actor as is Anupam kher.
At least Naseer is well respected as an actor everywhere but Anupam kher, his totally wasted in hindi films,let it be david dhawan or yaash chopra or karan johar they all fail to use his potential...So this post is for Mr. Anupan kher who's really a great actor!
In last week i also saw a flick named 'You don't mess with the zohan' It has one of my personal favourite Adam Sandler in lead.One thing i felt while watching the movie is CHEAP!yes the guy goes around to have sex with everyone even the old ladies and thats not funny at all,it seemed so childish n nonsense....
It confirmed that not all Hollywood movies are good and watching it with A Wednesday made me feel proud of Bollywood

A chance.......

Just yesterday i said thank god m very busy n look at the lord almighty...now m having free time as ever !! Its so strange how things change in very short span.
So now from writing one-two blog posts in a month m writing three four in just two days,although nobody reads them...its a shame for people who don't read my blog they don't know what(nonsense) they are missing!
Yesterday i read one of my friends wrote on his orkut profile "God are you listening?",It really meant something,I could feel his sorrow...Actually most my friends from college are suffering with same problem--THEY DON'T HAVE JOBS--
when someone asks them what are they doing these days;they reply as nothing yaar aaram kaar raha hoon,khana pina aish chal rahi hai...
If you only listen to what they are saying you will get a different feel but if you just glance in there eyes you can feel the sorrow!Yes they are a bit frustrated about not getting job,about people asking questions,about not able to prove themselves...
On the other hand there are people like me who are working,I started working very soon after my exams but m i very happy? The thing is i m also suffering from somewhat the same things like not able to prove myself,not able to answer my families question like "why don't you try for something with more salary?" and "look my friends son is earning more than you!"
It really makes me crazy when such questions are fired at me...The most disappointing thing is when they try to hide my salary as its a bit less according to them,so they try to hide it...
The people who are selected in IT companies are yet to receive there joining date,and they are waiting from 5 months and still are waiting,so they are frustrated as well, :)
so overall every ones frustrated here!but one thing is sure we all are waiting for a chance,a chance to prove ourselves,a chance to prove the world we have it in us,a chance to prove we can....

M not sad,but m definately not Happy!

hmmmmmmmm its been weeks rather months since i have written something....
god has been very kind to me for a long time now,and now in very critical days of my life his keeping me busy with some work or the other.......
Its an old saying that people who are very busy,that they don't have time to think about life are the blessed ones........now i might be one of them!
since i joined this company for my first job,i have been kept busy for the whole day,first it looked impossible to stay at one place for 8 hrs but then after 8-10 days those 8 hrs seemed very less............
One dirty fish makes the whole lake dirty!same is the case with my office.One guy is making all of us so negatively charged about the company that nobody here wants to do good work to take this company ahead.everyone wants to do work and get the money.
Actually this is professional way of working,which is a good thing but my morals think in a different way.If you want to do good work then you have to respect the company and you should think of the company as your company.........
This unfortunately is not the case with any of my colleagues,so for first few days i was very charged up for my job but when i saw others doing nothing and not responding to my work or not doing anything positively,my prospective started changing....I started to work only when i was told,this is not as much fun as when you do your work dilse........
All i can say is that i have also been converted into same professional worker by those dirty fish.

Mind-Blowing Experience......

How often in your life do you get an experience which blows your mind?
Well i had one experience which blew my mind!(literally)
Oct3 & Oct4 the two days of my life that i wont forget ever.
those two days gave me both good and bad things coming my way.
The day started with great things which i enjoyed very well but as the day progressed all my believes,all my feelings,my whole world was shattered....
I didn't have a clue of what went wrong,where did i go wrong?I gave my best shot,then why did i fail?why was this happening?all these thoughts came at a single point and a sound"kirrrrrrrrrrrrr" was there, i had no clue of what was happening.
My mind had literally stopped working all i wanted to do was cry,cry n cry.
but i was not able to do that as well! It was very pain full experience and was very unexpected to me,left me all f****d up.
I don't know if i will ever forget those days,It was the first time in my life when i felt clueless,i felt lonely,i felt like doing nothing,i felt like my life's over.
It was surely depressing time but then i realised that i cant stay down n cry all the time!
Next day i was left with two choices,two paths to choose from and i did so...
Now i think ,was i right ? or was i wrong? was my path right?
i don't know right now,but i will some day.
The day i will get my answer even if I'm wrong at least i Will be proud that i had made a decision in toughest time in my life,n that what important for me!
"IT'S NOT IMPORTANT IN LIFE, HOW HARD YOU CAN HIT BUT ITS ABOUT HOW HARD YOU CAN GET HIT AND KEEP MOVING FORWARD........."

अभिनव क्रिकेट...

Abhinav Bindra won a Gold for India In shooting in Olympics!yippee
I have been very fortunate enough to watch his gold medal winning performance of his
live,on television off course,I was lucky at the time when
rathore won a silver in Athens as well.we won 2 more bronze medals!!
The moment they won the medals everyone started complaining
how we over rate cricket n how these games are not given much importance!
Well,tell me Who is interested in watching a man shoot
a small target,were u don't even see the shot been hit...
in rathore's event u at least see the targets flying when he shoots,or
in case of wrestling or boxing u can at least see whats happening n enjoy(its also
for 3 to 4 minutes that's it)
But then how long u wanna see that?its only coz the Indian was shooting i was watching it.
I respect the fact that these athletes require great amount of
concentration n courage to choose the sport and proud of them,but dude whose interested in watching
the game?Isn't concentration required in cricket or football?
I think even more concentration is required in cricket!you play for nearly 8 hrs
n if u watch matches u can see that a catch gives u .3 to .5 sec of a
time for reflex actions.M not saying that cricket is better than other sports
(even though everyone knows,it is!)but lets not make cricketers so small like they have done nothing for the
country!
People might say cricket is not even included in Olympics!
I just wanna say lets just respect what we love Kabbadi,kushti,cricket etc.
M not saying don't play other games but because they r not including it doesn't mean its less by ne means
and if you still say that then it would be like
"उघड्या शेजारी नागदा गेला आणि कुद्कुडून मेला."


NOTE:The blog is written to..
1)To express my love for cricket,
2)I haven't mentioned my love for cricket in ne of my previous posts,i wanted to tell everyone.

Should i say thanks?

Tuesday 22 July the time was 9:15-9:30,I was going for work,was on bench so was relaxed n wanted to go late,i was on my bike going at about 10 kmph then came a chauk were a young ***%%**%* came from right with a speed of about 50-70 kmph i looked at him n hit the brakes n that b***%%* came straight without hitting brakes n bashed me....
I fell 8-10 feet away from my bike,i immediately tried to get up but couldn't,looked at my feet they were looking like two mango's...seriously!People gathered n tried to pick me up i said no need i don't wanna hurt those mangoes:)
I went to hospital got the treatment n ohh ohh got both the legs and left arm fractured and biggest good news i heard was that the other boy had no injury at all!f***.It just pissed me off.Now for no mistake of mine i have to stay paralysed for a month n that b***** had to get none of it.....
Now m in solapur n have my world on my bed.I always think sitting there why did it happen to me? well m a firm believer of KARMA,well if this happened to me i would say i must have done something wrong that's why this happened to me....Is this right?Donno;)

People say we should thank god for saving my life as it could have been worse....I agri,it could have been worse but should i say thanks to god?God could have avoided the accident itself...Is this right?Donno;)

What i know is that it is bloody frustrating to sit like this n there is n old saying "खाली दिमाग शैतान का घर.."n That's the reason behind all this nonsense in this blog....

Rock On!!

दिल क्या कहता है मेरा क्या में बताऊँ, तुम ये सम्जोगे शायद में पागल हूँ

दिल करता है टीवी. टावर पे में चढ़ जाऊ,चिल्ला चिल्लाके में ये सबसे केह्दु.

है ये वक्त का इशारा , हर लम्हा पुकारा.

युही देखता है क्या तू , जिंदगी मिलेगी न दोबारा......

दिल करता है सडको पर जोरसे गाऊ सब अपने अपने घरकी खिड़की खोले.

दिल में ऐसे जोशीले गीत सुनाऊ मेरे गीतों को सुनके सब ये बोले.

है ये वक्त का इशारा , हर लम्हा पुकारा।

युही देखता है क्या तू , जिंदगी मिलेगी न दोबारा......

जैसे जीनेको चाहे दिल जी वैसे तू, मेरी तो है बस एक राए के

अपने जितने अरमा है सब पुरे करले तू....!!!

Rock On!!

है ये वक्त का इशारा

हर लम्हा पुकारा...

युही देखता है क्या तू

जिंदगी मिलेगी न दोबारा......

Am I Really Happy?

When my engineering began immediately after one month i realised that Baramati sucks and from that day everyone one of us started waiting for engineering to get over and to leave the shit place called baramti.....
16 june 2008 the day arrived,it was the last paper of engineering.I had thoughts of how I'll celebrate after the paper n all just before the paper.As usual paper was really bad but when the bell rang everything was past.... paper ended.... everyone started shouting with joy,"Engineering over!".Sham-pain was bought, shirts were torn, Principal was cursed and we knew no more tests, papers n no more boring lectures and no more defaulters fine!!We partied like hell at night, enjoyed as if it was last day in our life.The moment we all waited for four years had finally arrived and nobody wanted to miss the celebration as we waited for this moment for four long years.We were really happy!

Next day came most of us had hangover of last night,people had cried, laughed and fought while drinking..One by one everyone started packing and then i realised that we might never meet again.I remembered SIDH'S lines from Dil Chahta Hai "कभी सोचा है हर साल यहाँ आना एकतरफ दस साल में एक बार मिलना भी मुश्किल होगा." Dil Chahta Hai,these lines define our state of mind.Its true but then i thought it wont be big deal after all we are going home & how can you be sad before going home! So i started packing my stuff n forgot this thought of bichadjana n all....

Soon came the day when everyone started to leave the hostel,then came the hugs n the good buys,slam books were filled at eleventh hour,everyone was happy,shouting and proud that they lasted for four years(for some 5-6 years)in baramati!I also packed my bags n called the auto we were 5 to 6 friends going at stand then to respective home towns.Auto came n we went to the S.T. Stand.

Everything was going really great till this point of time,but when i hugged one of my closest friend to say good bye he could not control and started crying as did the other friend as well and i felt come what may i don't wanna leave this place right now.I controlled myself really hard not to cry n tried to calm him down but he got very emotional n brought tears in my eyes as well....

I think its not about one friend crying n expressing his feelings but it was about the togetherness,the bonding that took place between all of us living in hostel and suddenly leaving all this was very difficult for all of us.... I don't wanna say m not excited about my future but m proud of my past,the days I spent in Baramati were the best days of my life!And Today if i ask myself m i really happy after leaving baramati,hostel??

Well i don't think so........

My New Hobby

One question 'What is the difference between old songs and new songs?'
Prashant Damle one of my favourate actors in his funny way said,"जुनी गाणी ऐकायला चांगली असतात आणि नवीन गाणी बघायला!"
Just when i heard this sentence thoughts started gathering in my mind.I was thinking is it true? Actually we have to admit most of the new songs have non sense lyrics n music which u forget immigiatly after a month. I dont think same is the case with old songs but as i belong to this generation i cant say new songs have nonsense lyrics n music. Atleast one thing everyone admitts is new song are great to watch!(no need to tell da reasons) This is the time when one my lateshht hobbies started,The hobby is that nowadays i listen to songs lyrics carefully n try to understand them.Me saying this is kinda funny but its true! You must have noticed it from last blog where i wrote lyrics of a song which suited the situation to the dot.Actually i found a lot of songs which meant nothing for me before but when i listened carefully to the lyrics it blew my mind.
The lyrics writter who stands in the first place is Prasoon Joshi.He is simply marvolous! After listening to javed akhtars poetry(which is a bit difficult for a guy like me to understand!) for a long long time in hindi movies Prasoon has changed the song lyrics defination upside down. If u dont belive me just listen the lyrics of songs From Rang de basanti and Tare zameen par. Each song from both movies has fantastic lyrics, simply great! Here are lyrics of two songs which are the best out of the songs which i recently heard actually all the songs from those films are great but these are just great...

Song : मेरी मा (तारे ज़मीन पर )
में कभी बतलाता नहीं पर अँधेरे से डरता हूँ में मा
यूं टू में,दिखलाता नहीं तेरी परवाह करता हूँ में मा
तुझे सब हैं पता, हैं न मा तुझे सब हैं पता,,मेरी मा
भीड़ में यूं न छोडो मुझे घर लौट के भी आ ना पाऊँ मा
भेज न इतना दूर मुज्क्को तू याद भी तुझको आ ना पाऊँ मा
क्या इतना बुरा हूँ में मा क्या इतना बुरा मेरी मा
जब भी कभी पापा मुझे जो जोर से झूला झुलाते हैं मा
मेरी नज़र ढूंढें तुझे सोचु यही तू आ के थामेगी मा
उनसे में यह कहता नहीं पर में सहम जाता हूँ मा
चेहरे पे आना देता नहीं दिल ही दिल में घबराता हूँ मा
तुझे सब है पता है ना मातुझे सब है पता मेरी मा
में कभी बतलाता नहीं पर अँधेरे से डरता हूँ में मा
यूं टू में,दिखलाता नहीं तेरी परवाह करता हूँ में मा
तुझे सब हैं पता, हैं न मा
तुझे सब हैं पता,, मेरी मा..

Song:Luka chupi(Rang de Basanti)
Luka Chuppi bahut huyi saamne aa ja naa
Kahan kahan dhoondha tujhethak gayi hai ab teri maa
Aaja saanjh hui mujhe teri fikar
Dhundhla gayi dekh meri nazar aa ja na
Kya bataoon maa kahan hoon
main Yahan udney ko mere khula aasmaan hai
Tere kisson jaisa bhola salonajahan hain yahan sapno vala
Meri patang ho befikar udd rahi hai maa
Dor koi loote nahin beech se kaate na
Aaja saanjh hui mujhe teri fikar
Dhundhla gayi dekh meri nazar aa ja na

Read my blog n found...

Time 11:47pm. m listening to a great song 'Jile Ishk Main' from U ME AUR HUM. Today m in a very good mood due to Mr. sehwag who just scored a mind blowing triple century against SA!
After reading some of my previous blogs it seems that i have been complaining a lot! usually m not like this but every time some shit happens before i write a blog n all my complains come in the blog.may be this is coz i never complain in real life n all those come out in my blog.well it seems like blogs becoming the place where i get all my frustrations out... Hopefully from now on i wont be doing all this stuff n bring out the more happy side of me in da blog.

The Call

How will you react when ur in a very bad mood or situation n need to talk to ur best friend.so u call ur friend n get a reply "hey call me after sometime m with another friend"
Today i expirienced the same thing n felt very bad, got angry, wanted to hit him.Well it feels very bad when same people dont have time for u ,for whom you not only have time but take out time when they need.n after all this what u get,is this answer....
I know this is wrong to help friends by expecting they would reciprocate back.But u cant tell ur mind what to do n what not to!well m acting a bit selfish n very demanding but i think those small moments f**k ur head very badly.
Donno m right or wrong but i wont forget those lines for a long time now....
I wont fight with him n will never tell him this as well but one thing i know from now onwards is ...."In tough times u'll always find two hands eagerly waiting to help you. And those hands will be at the end of ur own arms!"

My Magic Moment

After one and half month am writting this blog with words from my first blog still in mind --"I am in last year of engg. and dont have much to do!! There is lots of spare time."
Its funny how life takes a u-turn and suddenly you dont even have time to breath! Last one month has been like a roller coaster ride for me.I did Firodiya Karandak drama (for which i worked from 4pm to 3am daily) ,then came gathering ,then MAT exams and finally trip(which was royal fun by da way). Fewwwwsh.... it took me few days to come out of all this n it reflected on my health as well.Usually going through this hectic schedule people tend loose weight and I for some good reasons gained more than 5 kgs.
In all this rush there were few moments which were magical for me.One of them was a spot in malvan called Tarkarli Beach,you have to go by boat for 40-45 min to reach the beach and same for the return journey as well.we went there having fun.the beach was like heaven! while coming back i sat on front end of the boat,it was sunset time n i was sitting alone.I looked at the scenary n kept looking for the whole time without speaking a word,with each mountan passing a different thought came to my mind.Happyness ,satisfaction ,anger ,Fear to name a few. Dont Know why but i wanted to be alone and didnt speak a word. I dont have any words to explain my state of my mind at that time but i found this, which is some what similar.--->
"मौसम सुहाना, दुनिया भी कितनी सुहानी
कितने हसीं ये पल, धीरे धीरे चल जिंदगानी
मंजिल है साथी मुज्को सुनाती कहानी
अब न कभी तू बदल धीरे धीरे चल जिंदगानी
एक नशा छ गया, तेरा नाम आ गया
होंटों पे मेरे, पूछा जो हवा ने,
मेरे यार बता, तेरे दिल का पता
जहाँ बसे दिल, वही हैं दुनिया बसानी
कितने हसीं ये पल, धीरे धीरे चल जिंदगानी"

Sitting alone i was thinking all this and suddenly a voice asked me from behind,"Naikya kay zal ektach,shant basla?"
Don't know why but i had a smile on my face,I looked back with that smile n said nothing.....
I guess, without saying a word that smile said everything !!

Sorry Aamir....

I remember just few days before the release of the film Taare Jameen Par (TZP)my friend said," Hey, lets go to TZP.I think it'll be a great movie and directed by aamir himself so it would be a treat for us!! picture bhari astay Aamir khan lai danger ahe"

I replied "aye aamir khan evhdha kahi bhari nahi ahe be."

The reason behind saying this is that am not a big fan of Aamir khan as i firmly disagree with other people saying that his a great actor. As far i am concerned Aamir has never given a performance which has blown my mind(another actor for whom i share same views is Naseeruddin shah).Many people will disagree with me but i don't think all his movies are different and packed with great performances!People say his movies are different but they all are same except the plot.All have a love story,a romantic scene, songs and all the masala needed.

When i think what are his great performances which have given him this status of perfectionist,i come across only few films like Sarfarosh,Dil chahta hai,Lagaan and Rang de basanti.In Dil chahta hai, Lagaan and RDB he acted well but the real show stealer's were the other actors from the film.In Sarfarosh his character was very well written and acted very well but his acting i think was not sooo great!

To me a great performance is King Khans Kabeer khan from Chak de India,or Swades,Bazigar,Daar to name a few.People allways say 'Shahrukh Khan is a star not an actor' but when you see these film you will agree with me that his performed damm well in all of them.I say SRK Rocks!Other great actors who come to my mind are will smith,tom hanks and Nana patekar.All of them have given great performances weather its Pursuit of happyness or Krantiveer and for tom hanks its like his baap of all actors so no need to mention any movies.

Now returning to main topic, because of all these things in my mind i was not so excited going for TZP.I went for the movie and i swear am not lying i cried more than five times and it included both GUM ke AANSU and KHUSHI ke AANSU.For two days after watching the movie i was still thinking about it and feeling bad for how children are treated.

I watched the movie after one week again and i don't know why but i cried again and this time i cried even more as i was alone while watching the movie! This time also it took few days to get over it...Then came the third time and the same story followed.Now i have watched the film four times and each time watching it my views on Aamir as an actor and director were changing...

Today i feel sorry for under rating,underestimating Aamir khan and now I just wanna say"Aamir Khan Lai Danger Aahe!!"

CHAOS

The time is 1:48 am m feeling very sleepy but still am writing this blog as am very disturbed right now...
Today is birthday of a friend who brings a cake every time when there is someones birthday and celebrates their b'day to make them happy...Without anyone telling him he does all the work from his heart....
When you do these things for your friends ,you expect your friends to do the same!!Even if you say no,There is a small part in your heart which wants it to happen....
so today at 9 pm while coming to the hostel my roomie told me it's his b'day tomorrow,i usual i was unaware( as am not good with remembering dates !).I said lets take a cake,while two of us turned immediately the other two were not that interested.We discussed how he does it all the time and its our turn to return him the favours(though both of us never celebrate our b'day at hostel,we generally go home!!) .After that we turned back and went to the bakery,got the cake.
At 12.05am i realised that its time to celebrate. I called my roomie and went to his room.he was( acting as he was) sleeping, we woke him and wished him but that point of time we realised that we are the only ones who are aware of it even his room mates were unaware!
I took him to that room were everyone knew it was his b'day to celebrate, one guy who's his great friends with and who always gets a cake from him was not even there. In the room there were four people :two on respective computers and two on laptop.I deliberately wished him again loudly so that everyone would come to wish him BUT to my surprise no one even bothered to look back! It was a big shock to me...
To avoid the silences i cracked some jokes in my typical style like don't expect a cake from me n all..but after that also no one moved ! now i just wanted to go out and had no guts to look into b'day boys eyes, but still i stood there. After some time everyone came and celebrated as a formality...
What would be his state of mind be when no one wanted to celebrate his b'day....just thinking of this makes me sad ! I literally had tears in my eyes but couldn't cry....
Well you cant force someone to wish him! So, everyone eat the cake and went. I also came to my room wondering what exactly was wrong with everyone....
After doing all these things for others what does he get!! formality?? this just makes me wanna bash them...right now am very angry, very sad and very very disappointed.
But what exactly am i angry on?? No one bringing the cake? or no one trying to celebrate ??
Am i angry on these things or am i angry because no one here is ready to care for others..or because of people acting selfishly... or because of people using other people when needed and just kicking them after the use.Its scary but TRUE!!

At the end of the day the whole experience taught me one thing "ITS A VERY MEAN WORLD OUT THERE, IT DOESN'T CARE WHAT YOU FEEL OR CARE ABOUT. THE WORLD JUST SUCKS !! BUT ON THE OTHER SIDE , THERE ARE PEOPLE FROM WHOM YOU DON'T EXPECT ANY HELP, HELP YOU GOING OUT OF THEIR WAY AND MAKE THIS WORLD LITTLE LESS UGLY AND LESS HATEBLE"

About Confusion...

When i thought why i named the blog 'confusion all the way'? The best answer which came to my mind is ' i don't know ?' really !! Basically on deciding the blogs name itself i got confused! Its really funny, you decide to write a blog and your all set to write great stuff n all and they ask you to give the blog name.Suddenly there are twenty names in your mind to choose from and i for all the good reasons get confused (surprisingly!!)

It has always been my state of mind , weather choosing science or commerce after my tenth exams or choosing engineering or Bsc. or Bcom. after 12th. It has been always confusion and feel sorry for myself as i always went with the flow. And now here i am in the final year of my graduation and still confused about choosing a Career.

In all the rush of life sometimes when i sit down and think about my future, lots of questions come to my mind like 'what exactly i want to do with my life?' or 'where is life taking me?' or 'what would i end up being?'. I might be wrong here, but surely each of us comes to this state at least once in our life where we don't have a clue What's happening around us and you ask yourself "where is life taking me??"

Some times when am alone i think hours n hours on this question and every time i come out with only one answer "I Don't Know !! May be, I would never know where its taking me!! May be.. nobody will ever know where their life is taking them. May be..finding the answer itself is life... May be.."

one more thing-> writing these things just adds to all the CHAOS.

My First Post...

First of all let me clear you guys that this is my first attempt at writting n am not sure how it will turn out to be.. I don't know if anyone will be reading this or not but in my first post on this blog i think i should give the reason behind writting blogs.So here it goes....

1. My closest friend writes a diary,n told me that it really would be great if i write one too! Laziness being one of my qualities I thought instead of writting with a pen and a paper typing is a better way...But As usual i was not sure as i have never written anything...


2. I read lot of blogs n found it a very interesting idea to know what people are doing without meeting them or even talking to them.


3. I am in last year of engineering and don't have much to do!! there is lot of spare time.

so instead of wasting the spare time i have decided to write about me and my life to rediscover myself allover again...