Sorry Aamir....

I remember just few days before the release of the film Taare Jameen Par (TZP)my friend said," Hey, lets go to TZP.I think it'll be a great movie and directed by aamir himself so it would be a treat for us!! picture bhari astay Aamir khan lai danger ahe"

I replied "aye aamir khan evhdha kahi bhari nahi ahe be."

The reason behind saying this is that am not a big fan of Aamir khan as i firmly disagree with other people saying that his a great actor. As far i am concerned Aamir has never given a performance which has blown my mind(another actor for whom i share same views is Naseeruddin shah).Many people will disagree with me but i don't think all his movies are different and packed with great performances!People say his movies are different but they all are same except the plot.All have a love story,a romantic scene, songs and all the masala needed.

When i think what are his great performances which have given him this status of perfectionist,i come across only few films like Sarfarosh,Dil chahta hai,Lagaan and Rang de basanti.In Dil chahta hai, Lagaan and RDB he acted well but the real show stealer's were the other actors from the film.In Sarfarosh his character was very well written and acted very well but his acting i think was not sooo great!

To me a great performance is King Khans Kabeer khan from Chak de India,or Swades,Bazigar,Daar to name a few.People allways say 'Shahrukh Khan is a star not an actor' but when you see these film you will agree with me that his performed damm well in all of them.I say SRK Rocks!Other great actors who come to my mind are will smith,tom hanks and Nana patekar.All of them have given great performances weather its Pursuit of happyness or Krantiveer and for tom hanks its like his baap of all actors so no need to mention any movies.

Now returning to main topic, because of all these things in my mind i was not so excited going for TZP.I went for the movie and i swear am not lying i cried more than five times and it included both GUM ke AANSU and KHUSHI ke AANSU.For two days after watching the movie i was still thinking about it and feeling bad for how children are treated.

I watched the movie after one week again and i don't know why but i cried again and this time i cried even more as i was alone while watching the movie! This time also it took few days to get over it...Then came the third time and the same story followed.Now i have watched the film four times and each time watching it my views on Aamir as an actor and director were changing...

Today i feel sorry for under rating,underestimating Aamir khan and now I just wanna say"Aamir Khan Lai Danger Aahe!!"

CHAOS

The time is 1:48 am m feeling very sleepy but still am writing this blog as am very disturbed right now...
Today is birthday of a friend who brings a cake every time when there is someones birthday and celebrates their b'day to make them happy...Without anyone telling him he does all the work from his heart....
When you do these things for your friends ,you expect your friends to do the same!!Even if you say no,There is a small part in your heart which wants it to happen....
so today at 9 pm while coming to the hostel my roomie told me it's his b'day tomorrow,i usual i was unaware( as am not good with remembering dates !).I said lets take a cake,while two of us turned immediately the other two were not that interested.We discussed how he does it all the time and its our turn to return him the favours(though both of us never celebrate our b'day at hostel,we generally go home!!) .After that we turned back and went to the bakery,got the cake.
At 12.05am i realised that its time to celebrate. I called my roomie and went to his room.he was( acting as he was) sleeping, we woke him and wished him but that point of time we realised that we are the only ones who are aware of it even his room mates were unaware!
I took him to that room were everyone knew it was his b'day to celebrate, one guy who's his great friends with and who always gets a cake from him was not even there. In the room there were four people :two on respective computers and two on laptop.I deliberately wished him again loudly so that everyone would come to wish him BUT to my surprise no one even bothered to look back! It was a big shock to me...
To avoid the silences i cracked some jokes in my typical style like don't expect a cake from me n all..but after that also no one moved ! now i just wanted to go out and had no guts to look into b'day boys eyes, but still i stood there. After some time everyone came and celebrated as a formality...
What would be his state of mind be when no one wanted to celebrate his b'day....just thinking of this makes me sad ! I literally had tears in my eyes but couldn't cry....
Well you cant force someone to wish him! So, everyone eat the cake and went. I also came to my room wondering what exactly was wrong with everyone....
After doing all these things for others what does he get!! formality?? this just makes me wanna bash them...right now am very angry, very sad and very very disappointed.
But what exactly am i angry on?? No one bringing the cake? or no one trying to celebrate ??
Am i angry on these things or am i angry because no one here is ready to care for others..or because of people acting selfishly... or because of people using other people when needed and just kicking them after the use.Its scary but TRUE!!

At the end of the day the whole experience taught me one thing "ITS A VERY MEAN WORLD OUT THERE, IT DOESN'T CARE WHAT YOU FEEL OR CARE ABOUT. THE WORLD JUST SUCKS !! BUT ON THE OTHER SIDE , THERE ARE PEOPLE FROM WHOM YOU DON'T EXPECT ANY HELP, HELP YOU GOING OUT OF THEIR WAY AND MAKE THIS WORLD LITTLE LESS UGLY AND LESS HATEBLE"

About Confusion...

When i thought why i named the blog 'confusion all the way'? The best answer which came to my mind is ' i don't know ?' really !! Basically on deciding the blogs name itself i got confused! Its really funny, you decide to write a blog and your all set to write great stuff n all and they ask you to give the blog name.Suddenly there are twenty names in your mind to choose from and i for all the good reasons get confused (surprisingly!!)

It has always been my state of mind , weather choosing science or commerce after my tenth exams or choosing engineering or Bsc. or Bcom. after 12th. It has been always confusion and feel sorry for myself as i always went with the flow. And now here i am in the final year of my graduation and still confused about choosing a Career.

In all the rush of life sometimes when i sit down and think about my future, lots of questions come to my mind like 'what exactly i want to do with my life?' or 'where is life taking me?' or 'what would i end up being?'. I might be wrong here, but surely each of us comes to this state at least once in our life where we don't have a clue What's happening around us and you ask yourself "where is life taking me??"

Some times when am alone i think hours n hours on this question and every time i come out with only one answer "I Don't Know !! May be, I would never know where its taking me!! May be.. nobody will ever know where their life is taking them. May be..finding the answer itself is life... May be.."

one more thing-> writing these things just adds to all the CHAOS.

My First Post...

First of all let me clear you guys that this is my first attempt at writting n am not sure how it will turn out to be.. I don't know if anyone will be reading this or not but in my first post on this blog i think i should give the reason behind writting blogs.So here it goes....

1. My closest friend writes a diary,n told me that it really would be great if i write one too! Laziness being one of my qualities I thought instead of writting with a pen and a paper typing is a better way...But As usual i was not sure as i have never written anything...


2. I read lot of blogs n found it a very interesting idea to know what people are doing without meeting them or even talking to them.


3. I am in last year of engineering and don't have much to do!! there is lot of spare time.

so instead of wasting the spare time i have decided to write about me and my life to rediscover myself allover again...