CHAOS

The time is 1:48 am m feeling very sleepy but still am writing this blog as am very disturbed right now...
Today is birthday of a friend who brings a cake every time when there is someones birthday and celebrates their b'day to make them happy...Without anyone telling him he does all the work from his heart....
When you do these things for your friends ,you expect your friends to do the same!!Even if you say no,There is a small part in your heart which wants it to happen....
so today at 9 pm while coming to the hostel my roomie told me it's his b'day tomorrow,i usual i was unaware( as am not good with remembering dates !).I said lets take a cake,while two of us turned immediately the other two were not that interested.We discussed how he does it all the time and its our turn to return him the favours(though both of us never celebrate our b'day at hostel,we generally go home!!) .After that we turned back and went to the bakery,got the cake.
At 12.05am i realised that its time to celebrate. I called my roomie and went to his room.he was( acting as he was) sleeping, we woke him and wished him but that point of time we realised that we are the only ones who are aware of it even his room mates were unaware!
I took him to that room were everyone knew it was his b'day to celebrate, one guy who's his great friends with and who always gets a cake from him was not even there. In the room there were four people :two on respective computers and two on laptop.I deliberately wished him again loudly so that everyone would come to wish him BUT to my surprise no one even bothered to look back! It was a big shock to me...
To avoid the silences i cracked some jokes in my typical style like don't expect a cake from me n all..but after that also no one moved ! now i just wanted to go out and had no guts to look into b'day boys eyes, but still i stood there. After some time everyone came and celebrated as a formality...
What would be his state of mind be when no one wanted to celebrate his b'day....just thinking of this makes me sad ! I literally had tears in my eyes but couldn't cry....
Well you cant force someone to wish him! So, everyone eat the cake and went. I also came to my room wondering what exactly was wrong with everyone....
After doing all these things for others what does he get!! formality?? this just makes me wanna bash them...right now am very angry, very sad and very very disappointed.
But what exactly am i angry on?? No one bringing the cake? or no one trying to celebrate ??
Am i angry on these things or am i angry because no one here is ready to care for others..or because of people acting selfishly... or because of people using other people when needed and just kicking them after the use.Its scary but TRUE!!

At the end of the day the whole experience taught me one thing "ITS A VERY MEAN WORLD OUT THERE, IT DOESN'T CARE WHAT YOU FEEL OR CARE ABOUT. THE WORLD JUST SUCKS !! BUT ON THE OTHER SIDE , THERE ARE PEOPLE FROM WHOM YOU DON'T EXPECT ANY HELP, HELP YOU GOING OUT OF THEIR WAY AND MAKE THIS WORLD LITTLE LESS UGLY AND LESS HATEBLE"