Am I Really Happy?

When my engineering began immediately after one month i realised that Baramati sucks and from that day everyone one of us started waiting for engineering to get over and to leave the shit place called baramti.....
16 june 2008 the day arrived,it was the last paper of engineering.I had thoughts of how I'll celebrate after the paper n all just before the paper.As usual paper was really bad but when the bell rang everything was past.... paper ended.... everyone started shouting with joy,"Engineering over!".Sham-pain was bought, shirts were torn, Principal was cursed and we knew no more tests, papers n no more boring lectures and no more defaulters fine!!We partied like hell at night, enjoyed as if it was last day in our life.The moment we all waited for four years had finally arrived and nobody wanted to miss the celebration as we waited for this moment for four long years.We were really happy!

Next day came most of us had hangover of last night,people had cried, laughed and fought while drinking..One by one everyone started packing and then i realised that we might never meet again.I remembered SIDH'S lines from Dil Chahta Hai "कभी सोचा है हर साल यहाँ आना एकतरफ दस साल में एक बार मिलना भी मुश्किल होगा." Dil Chahta Hai,these lines define our state of mind.Its true but then i thought it wont be big deal after all we are going home & how can you be sad before going home! So i started packing my stuff n forgot this thought of bichadjana n all....

Soon came the day when everyone started to leave the hostel,then came the hugs n the good buys,slam books were filled at eleventh hour,everyone was happy,shouting and proud that they lasted for four years(for some 5-6 years)in baramati!I also packed my bags n called the auto we were 5 to 6 friends going at stand then to respective home towns.Auto came n we went to the S.T. Stand.

Everything was going really great till this point of time,but when i hugged one of my closest friend to say good bye he could not control and started crying as did the other friend as well and i felt come what may i don't wanna leave this place right now.I controlled myself really hard not to cry n tried to calm him down but he got very emotional n brought tears in my eyes as well....

I think its not about one friend crying n expressing his feelings but it was about the togetherness,the bonding that took place between all of us living in hostel and suddenly leaving all this was very difficult for all of us.... I don't wanna say m not excited about my future but m proud of my past,the days I spent in Baramati were the best days of my life!And Today if i ask myself m i really happy after leaving baramati,hostel??

Well i don't think so........